don't be scared!!

well, here ya go! this is me preggers at 35 weeks. i still have 5 more weeks to go if you can believe it.  hardly any of my maternity pants fit (which i don't quite understand if they are elastic~ shouldn't they fit any size?). also, my belly is hanging out of the bottom of most of my shirts. 

i think brian is starting to get worried about me. he is always asking:

 1. will i ever get back to my pre-maternity size?

2. will the stretch marks fade?

3. will this be the last baby?

i would feel bad for him but i don't know the answers to the questions either. i know i am tired of peeing on myself, constantly being hungry and having indigestion at the same time and i miss laying on my stomach to sleep. 

dealing with fertility for so long before presley was born though makes me grateful to even have these problems to deal with. i remember sitting in cordova "dirty dova" praying for these problems and worries. i am so grateful to even be able to carry our child (especially after having a miscarriage) but does that mean i can't have concerns now about what will happen or voice my struggles when presley is having a bad day?

 i hope things are able to go back to the way they were before (with my belly) and i know there is a lot of work ahead. no more fast food and chocolate donuts every day. i have even bought a bunch of fruit for the house b/c if presley sees me eating it then she wants it too. i will use presley as my focus when eating better. that should do the trick?????